my life. my rules. my style.

Sunday Sch Memories..

2006-07-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

I watched the kids @ Sunday Sch tdy.
They were singing this song called,
"I do it all for Jesus."

It goes like this.

In the house & Out of doors
Shining shoes & Scrubbing flrs
Washing, ironing, brewing tea
Sometimes frying Hokkien Mee

I do it all for Jesus
*clap clap

I do it all for Jesus
*clap clap

I do it all for Jesus!
Cuz he's done so much for me..

fond memories.
i stood there and laughed to myself.

hw i miss those times..
*sigh

blah.

2006-06-12T16:34:00.000+08:00

If only things were absolutely transparent..
*ponders

quote

2006-06-08T00:49:00.000+08:00

I was having my daily dose of Bryanboy

and this is what he said:

"Flaunt it cause you have it.
Show it while you have it.
Work it like you own it.
FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT.
I dress like a princess but in reality I'm just a pauper. "

words of wisdom.

if u have never read any of my other posts or have never met me, this is THE essential post that is a must read for u.. this is me in a nutshell. i'm so screwed up and so complicated that even i'm confused.

photo credit: www.bryanboy.com

damn.

2006-06-06T23:09:00.000+08:00

i need a job.
i need the money.
i refuse to beg like a dog.
i refuse to be treated like dirt.
its your loss.

u'd be crazy not to hire me.

fuck this.

... Queasy.

2006-06-05T21:10:00.000+08:00

Ever wondered how falling sick feels like?

I'm feeling like tt now.

Ugh.

comics!

2006-06-01T23:56:00.000+08:00

Over The Hedge comics..
from: www.comics.com

try and spot Hammy the Squirrel.
i'm look like it.! :p

heyy.

2006-06-01T23:25:00.000+08:00

Cause vous avez eu un mauvais jour

Vous prenez un vers le bas

Vous chantez une chanson triste juste pour la tourner autour

Vous dites que vous ne savez pas

Vous me dites que ne vous trouvez pas

Vous travaillez à un sourire et vous allez chercher un tour

Vous avez eu un mauvais jour

L'appareil-photo ne se trouvent pas

Vous revenez vers le bas et vous vraiment ne vous occupez pas

Vous avez eu un mauvais jour

i hope this makes sense. (:

smile.
and the world smiles with you.

cry.

and i'll cry with you.

nothing's ever so bad.

things will turn out for the better!

smile will ya?

love,

dead end.

2006-06-01T20:04:00.000+08:00

its a dead end. i don't know what else to do.

photo grabbed from flickr: mystic200

street signs

2006-06-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

EVER HAD DECISIONS TO MAKE?

ONLY TO FIND YOUSELF GOING ABOUT IN CIRCLES?

THEN U ENCOUNTER SOME PROBLEMS, THAT U CAN'T SOLVE?

ONLY TO REALISE THAT..THERE'S NO TURNING BACK!

MAYBE WE ALL NEED TO STOP AND TAKE STOCK. THEN DECIDE WHAT'S BEST FOR OURSELVES. (:

hmmm... are u happy?

WMD

2006-05-30T17:23:00.000+08:00

just a little distraction from the tuesday blues..

hum dee humm..

ponder ponder ponder

2006-05-30T13:44:00.000+08:00

u're only as good as u believe u are. so is life all a charade?
i think i've gotten away with one or two little shinnagians before..
as shakespeare so famously put: "the world's a stage and all of us mere actors"

u pretend to be what u wanna be and u become that person? c'est possible non?
mais..

the other thing is...

when things go wrong..who's to blame? fate? chance? or everyone else but ourselves? *ahem

or..

is everything that we do all of our own doing? we did make a choice innit? we obvioulsy knew what was going on around us..did we just choose to ignore the signs?

ponder. ponder. ponder.

me and my wandering mind..

Rings Galore!

2006-05-28T22:05:00.000+08:00

Fusion Rings from Georg Jensen.
It'll be a perfect birthday gift! haha.

amen

2006-05-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

the holy trinity of fashion.

bags.
belts.
shoes.

amen.

love dedication

2006-05-18T09:46:00.000+08:00

Addicted
-kelly clarkson

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon
That I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughtsIn my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe

this is for my banana..
i just read yr blog..and we talk about it all the time..babe i feel ur pain..
i hate copying lyrics..cuz its like stealing thoughts..but kelly's got it right this time..

and babe this is so so u..

it doesn't give any answers to any of the problems..but i know this is exactly how it feels..

bottomline: who cares about journey's end; its the journey that's fun. enjoy it while it u have it..

luv ya lots!!

more shoes!!

2006-05-17T23:01:00.000+08:00

put yourself in my shoes.
if the shoe fits.these shoes are made for walking.

shoe-phoria

there's so much more to a shoe then it just being a shoe.

hell, there even was an old lady who lived in a shoe!!

think abt it..all these sayings..'put yourself in my shoes', 'if the shoe fits'..it kinda sounds like your shoes represent u..innit?

i read somewhere that you can judge a guy based on the state of his shoes; well cared shoes=he's gay. scruffy shoes=straight. but in this day and age of metrosexual, no one can be quite so certain anymore..hmmm?

anyhow..it is in MY opinion that..shoes are the next best thing after food. i dunno. they just make me happy. and there ain't nothing that's gonna change my mind.

shoelover,

timmitini

*pictures courtesy of filckr

shoes!!

2006-05-16T10:09:00.000+08:00

check out these SHOES!! red and black.. they're gorgeous!!

found them in GOLD.. yummylicious!!

I LOVE 'EM! LOVE 'EM! LOVE 'EM

round and round in circles

2006-05-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

I KNOW I NEED HELP, BUT WHERE DO I GO TO GET IT!!?!

someone once told me about a'quarter life crisis' i thought i was utter rubbish..
but now i think im in one. the feeling like ure stuck in the present not wanting to go back to being a kid, but not wanting to mature into an adult either. its a pissy place to be.. maybe i'll splurge on something..that's what u don when u're in a crisis..innit? haha

i like going round and round in circles..but only if i get somewhere eventually..

ponder. ponder. ponder.

this is for u..enjoy!! =)

love,
timmytini

the truth about cats and dogs

2006-05-10T00:02:00.000+08:00

independence.. heh

u're never happy with what u have, u're always wanting ur man's best friend!
haha

i'm a cat person, he likes dogs..

go figure..haha

caution:
*this is in no way representative of anybody i know.

death

2006-05-09T10:30:00.000+08:00

today's obession: death.

fcuked.

2006-05-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

this is how im feeling today. u'd probably wanna be in the same position, but its really not as hot as it looks..

i woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.

the sad side.. but it got me thinking about life..and what the fuck i was doing with it.

i've got no job, i've got no money. im f*cked.

i've loads of free time but im complaining. that's fu*ked.

i've got so many things to do, but i ain't doin them. fuc*.

in short its all fuck*d.

check out hotness in the pic..sure he looks HOT* but he's as fucke* as i am..

haha
tim =)

let's do it

2006-05-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

...even the bugs do it, even the bees do it, let's do it..let's fall in love..la la la

we had a fight!! boy..did it feel good!

i love anger, its such a powerful emotion, it makes u wanna scream, throw things, cry..
but then again it makes u wanna laugh, love and all warm inside.

its a crazy thing, u fight, u make up. it makes us fall in love all over again. i think.

u prolly think im crazy. hell. i think i am. but wouldn't the world be boring if there were only normal sane human beings!?

-tim

...

2006-05-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

I don't know why I miss you so much.
So much that I teared while sitting
alone. Loneliness. Can't combat it.
What's gotten into me?
Tell me!

Is this what people call too emotional?
Ugh. Dammit.

On hind note..
I'll prove you wrong.
We'll not see the end of us
UNLESS you want to. *grins

Hi..

2006-04-24T10:52:00.000+08:00

It's been more than 2mths.
All the laughters, the grumpiness,
the time spent.
It's all a memory.
A good memory.

and yes,
HI! (:

surprise me further!
brighten up my life like it's always done.
i'll never get bored.
never.

p.s. I WANT MY LYCHEE MARTINI!!!

Look here.

2006-03-30T19:44:00.000+08:00

just wanna get this off my chest.

DO LOOKS REALLY MATTER ALOT?

period.

thank you.

2006-03-12T12:43:00.000+08:00

this week the message is simple:

thank you :)

love me.

2006-03-06T23:03:00.000+08:00

the hardest person to love, is yourself.

because only u know your imperfections. only u know what there is to hate about yourself. only u know all of your bad habits. only u can never match up to what u set yourself up to be. why is that?

funny innit?

but everytime someone says I love u..smile.

cuz that's reason enough to believe that despite these imperfections, someone sees something inside that's worth loving. :)

and they lived happily ever after...?

2006-03-02T22:42:00.000+08:00

and they lived happily ever after....?

a couple of weeks back, the idea of happiness was a chilled lychee martini and good jazz playing in the background enjoying the company of those dear to me, me, myself and i. i was the product of the mtv generation fallen prey to destiny's child's anthem: "independent women". i don't need nobody but myself. i'm already happy, thank you very much.

then something happened.

note to self: when did i stop believing that cinderalla did really meet a prince, got married and lived happily ever after?

maybe they did. i'd like to believe so...

let's bring it down to basics:

find a man and be happy*, simple. cinderalla did it. so did snow white and sleeping beauty.. why can't we?

what i'm saying is- its no fun to be smiling to yourself. the real joy comes from knowing that, that special someone's smiling because of you.

p.s. i'm smiling because, you made me believe that fairytales do come true. :)

-disclaimer-
*women- i'm not being sexist. i'm not saying go find a man, you're helpless without one.

2005-12-14T21:20:00.000+08:00

My sis took this at the pool just now. She said my hair looks nice like tt.. Don't think so yea..

2005-12-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

There.. The stitches. THREE of them! Ain't it amazing? Haha.

2005-12-14T21:15:00.000+08:00

First, they cut up my gum. 2nd, they saw my tooth into half. Third, they pluck out my remaining tooth. Lastly, they stitched up my gum.

2005-12-14T21:12:00.000+08:00

The dark portion you see.. It's blood.

MY SURGERY

2005-12-14T20:33:00.000+08:00

just had a surgery.
a dental surgery.
last night.
yeouch!

my mouth did hurt after the anaesthasia.
couldn't sleep. sucked.
kept flippin' n flippin'..
like a fish out of water.
ok. wait. tt's too dramatic.
a lil' less than that la.

ohwells.
gonna be staying at home.
gonna be bored.
guess i should do something to my voice.
hmm. brilliant idea.

speaking of that..
My church is gonna haf a Christmas Performance
on the 24th Evening 7PM at Golden Mile Theater.
It's is very first one. so yeah, come down and
support yupp! hee..
It's just opposite the Army Market.
So, it shouldn't really be a problem for guys
who've entered the army yupp.
And yea. i really hope to see you guys there.
really. your support would mean a great deal..!

ohwells.
went to the pool with my sista just now.
tanned. got irritated with her.
actually everyone around me.
i get easily irritated nowadays. dunno why.
think there's smth wrong with me.
anyone save me?

guess only God can do smth to my life now.

ohwells.
SAVE ME! (:

2005-11-23T20:15:00.000+08:00

I WANT THIS!!! (:

Words Of Truth..

2005-11-18T00:16:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine said this..

"People often break up not because they
don't love each other..
But because they don't know
what they want."

So true is this statement.
I agreed with him totally.

Time to rethink life fellas.
It is time.

If any of you think
physical appearance is what is most impt
in a relationship, pls.
Don't even step into one.
You'll do more harm than good.
Well, not a least gd at all i guess.

Yes.. Although you'll get turned on cuz
people look so physically alluring,
give yr head a knock.. once, maybe twice,
and ask yrself what's really good in them.

Are you going after the 'HOT' person
just because..
he is well-built and hung
or
she is sexy and voluptuous?

Cast those thoughts away!
It's lust written all over yr face.
You lustful creature!

2005-11-15T16:57:00.000+08:00

me. joycelyn. i didn't know why i did this pose either. why did i do it? *scratches head*

2005-11-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

eunice. me. she looks like some rich tai tai right? haha. all thanks to her bro. come on eunice.. thank me! :p

2005-11-15T16:54:00.000+08:00

erwin. me. mummy. i love her. hehe.

2005-11-15T16:53:00.002+08:00

erwin. me. old time friends man. since way back.

2005-11-15T16:53:00.001+08:00

lichu. me. lalang. ever wondered how these two girls look alike? haha.. yea! they're sisters! cute! (:

2005-11-15T16:53:00.000+08:00

li chu. me. lalang.

2005-11-15T16:52:00.000+08:00

just tell me how spastic can i get? my sister asked me to do this. argh.

2005-11-15T16:50:00.000+08:00

the guys in the youth.. not all. but most. bunch of jokers i tell you.

2005-11-15T16:49:00.001+08:00

me. pink. someone asked whether she's my mum. gosh. does she look old?

2005-11-15T16:49:00.000+08:00

me. mary. she always looked so presentable. (:

2005-11-15T16:48:00.000+08:00

me. lalang. we were taking a break during the 105mins of photo shoots.. lol.

2005-11-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

me. lalang. bee. funny faces we all.

2005-11-15T16:46:00.001+08:00

bee. me. alicia. jess.

2005-11-15T16:46:00.000+08:00

bee. me. (my tag team partner) haha.

Sunday.

2005-11-15T16:27:00.000+08:00

Reached church at 7:40AM.
Most of the people who were performing
were there already..

oOps. Late again.

Actual practice started at like 8:40AM.
gosh.. like so long.

The time came. 10AM.
It started...
The marathon of 30 songs.
We sung and played.
And we enjoyed it.
We didn't feel tired immediately aft tt..
Only an hr later did the effect start to
kick in..
We were damn lethargic.

Plus..
we had to pack up all the stuff.
it was a chore.
almost everyone moved like snails. haha.

ohwells.
aft the packing up,
we had our photo taking session..
all the youths.
i tell you.
we are mad.

we spent like 1hr 45mins taking pics..
we just kept snapping away.
i'll post the photos online.
best part was..
we made so much noise till the
hotel manager had to come quieten us dwn.

then someone decided to ask everyone to
go for lunch.. and there. we stopped.

some went to Carl's Jr. to fill our empty
stomachs..

others went to the Marina Food Loft.
such a tacky name right?
Food Loft.. haha!

and that's abt it..
i left aft having my jumbo sized burger.
my stomach nearly went bust.
i'm serious.

left home with dad n mum..
slept in the car like some baby.

reached hm and slept somemore.

i loved sunday.
what a life.

enjoyed every moment of it..
when everyone was so together.
i guess it's the company.
it was real fun.
how i wish every sunday wld be like this.

but then again..
we'll always be so tired aft tt.
so, better not.
maybe once a month?
hee.

thank God for everything He'd done.
it's a sunday i'd never forget. (:

2005-11-13T00:12:00.000+08:00

This was the ultimate. Look. Just look. gosh..

2005-11-13T00:10:00.000+08:00

On the way to Bedok. In the train.. A couple of blonde wannabes. -pukes-

After getting Tics..

2005-11-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

After getting tics..
Gosh. Thank God it's over!

Ohwells.
Went down to Bedok to meet Jia Hui.
My long time SWS fellow flautist.
Eh! Must go back soon yupp!
We're losing out to all those young ones!
And that's freaking sad.

Borrowed a blazer from him.
Fits me perfectly. Thanks! (:
Brian needs it for his performance in
Church tomorrow tt's why..

Cut my hair in Bedok too.
Cost me $12. Quite Ok.
Forgot to take the pic of the shop.
But it's damn inaccesible la.
And my stomach was aching cuz I couldn't
walk for long distances.

Took a bus from Bedok to Woodlands.
The freak bus was crawling like hell.
I totally got pissed with the driver.
Really. Like 45 Km/H.
Shitty. It took like 1hr plus!

Then was late for church.
My choir prac.. Ugh.
Sucks la.

Consolation was..
I drove to church!
And drove back home!
haha. Haven't driven the car for so long..
Missed my car.

Oh..
Which reminds me.

I used the car yesterday.
Like last night, to send my mummy & sis
to church for Friday Overnight Prayer.

When we came back,
we couldn't get the spot tt my father
previously parked. I had no choice but to go
to another level instead..

You know what my father did?

He parked his company vehicle next to
my car.. When there were so many other
lots down below, he purposely came up to
my level where the car was to park nxt to
it.. Like why? Gosh..
This is the ultimate la I tell you.
Real ultimate.

He's so close to touching my nerves.

Ugh.

2005-11-12T23:51:00.000+08:00

This is where Sri's good service provider resides. haha. Ohwells. The travel agent's English ain't tt great either! oOps.

2005-11-12T23:48:00.000+08:00

Travel GSH PTE LTD. I hope they wouldn't sue me. This is where Adrian's Pink Panther resides. hahah.

2005-11-12T23:46:00.000+08:00

Most of the travel agencies have these heavy marble like seats. Gosh.. It's really damn difficult to shift frm one place to another la. Terrible!

2005-11-12T23:33:00.000+08:00

Yours truly. People's Park Foodcourt. Like major crowds of Ah Peks and Ah Ma.. You see for yrself. =P

2005-11-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

This is Sri.. I'm suppose to be beside him in the pic but i looked like an idiot. I edited it. haha.

2005-11-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

Adrian and his girlfriend. Just look at Adrian. He spoils the picture! LoL.

2005-11-12T23:18:00.000+08:00

This. I don't know what they call this. But it caught my attention cuz of its huge size when I entered People's Park Centre. Most people were touching its belly. Like hurh? haha.

It's Special.

2005-11-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

I'll start this post on a different note.

Today.
I went to get air tickets for my
Bangkok trip with Adrian n his gf,
and Sri.

And as usual..
Sri was freaking late.
Like hell..!
ALWAYS! hahaha.

But i don't blame him.
It's just him. (:

Ok.
The search started off at around 10+ AM.
It ended ard 3:15PM.

Oh. I forgot to mention that we went to
People's Park Centre to get the tics.

Ok. Coming back..
We went up and down for several times.
It was damn tiring la although the
building only has 4 stories.
I almost died.

You guys shd've been there.
I'm serious. I got cracked up like so many
times cuz of the face-off btn. which travel
agent Adrian wanted and which travel
agent Sri wanted.

It was like a..
"Adrian vs Sri"
kinda thing.

Listen to what Adrian said..
"My travel agent is prettier and not fat.
Unlike yours. Although we're paying a lil'
higher, I wouldn't mind. Cuz she's chio."

Sri said..
"You have a super lousy travel agent.
I'm paying this travel agent cuz of the good
service she's giving me. And I like that.
Although she's fat, she's speaks better Eng
than your lousy travel agent. Your travel
agent looks like Pink Panther. That's chio
to you is it?!"

At this point..
I totally had to agree with Sri.
Adrian's travel agent didn't even look the
least pretty. Like ewWww..
Major Ewww! wahaha.

Listen to what I said..
[sits at one corner - stomach was hurting]
"You know what? I don't care which
screwed up travel agent both of you wanna
go. I'll just follow the lowest price. And tt'll
be Sri's one.."

Adrian tried to get a discount frm his
Pink Panther and no.. She couldn't give him
a lower price.

We settled for Sri's travel agent instead.
$332 per person. 5 Days 4 Nights.
Staying at Mandarin Hotel tentatively.
Inclusive of transfers, accomodation, etc.
It's the best deal we could get.

Flying off on.. 28th Dec. 9:25AM.
Coming back on.. 1st Jan. 5:30PM.

Gonna spend New Year's with my bunch of
cracko friends.. Hope it'll be greeeat.! (:

2005-11-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

Check this Out..! Haha. It's cute! http://www.apple.com/trailers/disney/chicken_little/

2005-11-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

XKR Coupe in Ultraviolet with optional R Performance handling pack and Montreal 20inch split-rim cast alloy wheels. Sporty! (:

2005-11-11T15:42:00.000+08:00

XKR Coupe in Platinum. Immaculate.

2005-11-11T15:37:00.000+08:00

This. Is my all time fav. Sleek to the max! (: It's called the Jaguar XKR Coupe. This is what i call PERFECTION. Ohwells. Don't think i'll be able to get it. But if anyone wants to get it for me, pls do so..!

2005-11-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

This is Z4's interior.

2005-11-11T15:32:00.000+08:00

BMW Z4. One of my fav convertible.. So sleek. I'll get this next time. Even if it costs me my life.!

At home..

2005-11-11T13:29:00.000+08:00

You know..
I think my family's a really sweet one.

Excluding the presence of my father.
He doesn't really care about what happens
to me. And I don't really bother about it
cuz I feel it's better that way.

Like..
"You don't disturb me,
I don't disturb you kind of mentality."

I don't know..
But I guess he doesn't really express his
care explicitly. And it disturbs me.
Like hell.. Why can't he? Is it difficult?
I'm your son man..

Ohwells.
Forget it. I'm used to it already.

Back to my sweet family..
Consisting my mummy n sister.

Sweet creatures I tell you.
But sometimes i'll get irritated because
they care too much! wahaha!

They've been getting me food whenever
I'm hungry. Attending to my needs and all.
I feel like I'm a king in the house.
And No.. I don't take them for granted.
That's why I'm expressing my thanks to
them here. Right here. In my blog.
So the world will know what great family
members I have! (:

And to my friends who've asked abt me.
Thank you all. There's nothing more I can
ask since you all are sooo busy with yr
work, school and army.
Thank you again.

I pray God bless all of you..
Even those who didn't ask abt me.
That he'll meet your every need.
Not every want. Cuz our wants are
unlimited. That you all have peace in your
lives and families. That the friends you all
have wouldn't just be some hi-bye kind.
But the ones whom you'll share your souls
and hearts with. Amen.

2005-11-10T15:33:00.000+08:00

There there.. This character looks like Matthias! LoL.

2005-11-10T15:32:00.001+08:00

On hind sight.. This is what i've been eating. Josh bought this Koala biscuits specially from Shanghai. It has butter inside it. Nice!

2005-11-10T15:32:00.000+08:00

I've been eating these too.. Mummy got them for me! Haha. Snickers are good for snacks! (:

2005-11-10T15:29:00.000+08:00

And lastly.. The small intestine. They call this part the duodenum.

2005-11-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

This is the btm of my stomach..

2005-11-10T15:27:00.000+08:00

This is the top of my stomach. See the very red portion? yupp. That's where the inflammation is.

2005-11-10T15:25:00.000+08:00

This is my Oesophagus. It's so big right? I bet all of you have a larger diameter than mine!

2005-11-10T15:22:00.000+08:00

My name band.. I had a red one while others had the white one cuz I'm having a drug allergy. Allergic to this drug called "Ibuprofen". It's an anti-inflammatory drug. And it's very effective. But the last time I took it, my eyes swelled. And I looked like a gold fish la.. So ugly!

Gastric..

2005-11-10T14:49:00.000+08:00

Remember i said i had gastric and all..?

And that it gotten worst?

It really got worst.

The pain started last friday..

And got more atrocious as the days passed.

Until I couldn't stand the pain anymore,

I went to see my GP on Sunday.

He gave me some gastric pills to reduce the

production of gastric juices..

It didn't help.

On Monday, i was supposed to head back to camp.

Cuz that's when my MC ended. But I couldn't bring

myself to even walk or stand. It hurt so badly.

I decided to ask for an extension of another day.

On Tuesday, I went to Alexandra Hospital's

Emergency Dept. The nurses and doctors were

so kind, so helpful. Unlike those in TTSH where

the service was a little on the down side I would say.

Ohwells. Time passed quite quickly. I took apples

and munched on them. Crunchy! haha.

Took away the pain for awhile.

Then it came back again.

Time to see the Doc..

He suspected it was stomach ulcer.

And quickly scheduled me for an appt with the

endoscopist the very next day.

I could tell he was more afraid for my stomach

than I was. LoL.

He gave me another 2 days MC, Tues & Wed.

On Wed morning.. 9AM.

I went back to Alexandra Hospital again.

The procedures were a little screwed up.
But then again, the service made up for its shortfall.

By 10+, I was ushered into the endoscopy room..

The nurse sprayed some anaesthetic in my throat.

It numbed my throat. And I couldn't feel a thing.

The scope then made its way down to my throat.

But as the scope proceeded down my vocal cords,

I kinda choked. My muscles stiffened. It was so so

uncomfortable. Tears rolled down my eyes.

They kept asking me to relax. And I tried to relax

as best as I could.

"Breathe in, Breathe out." The nurse kept saying.

And finally, it reached my stomach.

They took some pics of it and there's that.

It's done. The whole thing took less than

7mins i suppose. So fast.

Diagnosis..
Inflammation in the stomach without bleeding.

Thank God.

It wasn't that serious.
But this will take quite some time to heal.

Gosh.. So much for thinking that it's stomach ulcer!

haha. (:

The pics will just be above..
Take a look at them.
Tell me what you think.

I must say they have good photography skills!

Hahaha!

New..

2005-11-10T00:59:00.000+08:00

Oh yea. During the past week..

I remember last Thursday.
Went to help out at Adrian's mother's
shop at the Heeren. It's on the 4th Flr.
Just opposite New Urban Male.

I know you people will probably drool
at those guys working there.
Haha. If you think I did, well.. NO!
I didn't alright.! (:

Busy trying to get people to buy accessories,
necklaces, chains, and the likes. Haha.
Been using my charm to lure ppl to buy.
Well well.. It's been working quite alright.
Managed to make $300+ on that day alone.

I guess it's the Smiles and the..
"Hi, Can I help you?"
That actually induced ppl to buy.
I don't know. But it seems it worked most of
the time. Guess it's service that matters!

During the period i was working,
thursday, friday and saturday..
I didn't have my meals regularly.
No. Not blaming Aunty or anything.
It's just.. me being lazy to close the shop to go
get something to eat.

I always waited for Adrian and his gf to come by
so they could take over me for awhile.
Or.. I'll wait for Ruth to come by.
Oh. Ruth's another helper from the company.
Very sweet girl. She's Indonesian-Chinese.

Coming back..
It's then that I somehow developed more severe
gastric i guess. Oops.

But it was a very enriching experience.
I mean the sales promoter job.
Other than sitting there and thinking about things
that made me rmb the past, I made use of the time
to think abt what I'm going to do in the future.

I don't know..
But I'm planning to retake my 'A' Levels.
Take my SAT next year.
And think about what jobs I'm interested in..

I don't wanna be a loser in life.
Losers don't make it anywhere.
Cuz there just isn't any space for losers.

I'm back..

2005-11-09T23:58:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time.
Since September i suppose.
Haven't been blogging for quite afew reasons.
Not going to mention them.
They're history.

Ohwells.
Time to start afresh.

I've been thinking for the past week,
after I left this precious someone.
All the memories of being together.
They're etched so deeply in my heart.
I'll never forget them.

Sometimes, I think we really aren't meant
to be together. We're like kids.
We have our own set of friends.
The things we do are different.
We don't do things together.
That's why we kinda broke up.

Other times, I think to myself..
"Why can't kids be together? The relationship
will be so plain, pure and simple.
And that is what it's suppose to be isn't it?
Why can't we share our friends and what
we do with each other? Is it that difficult?
Is someone not making the effort OR
Is someone not making the effort?"
):

Ohwells. This IS life isn't it?
Like what OTHERS say. -sigh-

Anyway..
For those who were with me throughout the past
week, you know you're deeply appreciated and
always missed by me. I thank you all for being
here during my lowest periods. For all the talks
and company, I'm sure I've learnt a great deal
from you all.. Thanks again. (:

It sounds like some farewell speech ain't it?
Haha. Ohwells.
Farewell to the old..
Welcome the New!